Feel the Bad Thing

There's a feeling you get in your stomach. You don't know if you're starving or about to vomit. It's confusing, feeling both very full and very empty. You're not sure what move to make, whether or not a sandwich will upset you. You go through a list in your mind: banana, toast, water, something with bubbles, something to settle the stomach. But does it need settling? You'll go on and on and on, driving yourself crazy, pulling apart this feeling, trying to understand it. Sitting on your couch and thinking maybe it'll just go away on its own, or at least go one way or the other, you could feel worse, at least that would be a change. You're not even sure which you'd choose, better or worse. You're almost thinking worse, right? You could stand to feel a bit worse. For some reason you could stand to feel a bit worse. Then you're thinking about it, you're thinking about feeling worse, and suddenly you feel it. You can feel the change. But now you're not even sure if it's real or if it isn't, if what you're feeling is what you're feeling. Time to pull the trigger. Gag on something, vomit, get it over with. Feel the bad thing and move on.